Sometimes I do this "thing". It's sort of sad. But, it's also sort of wonderful. When I'm in the car (or on my computer) listening to a sappy station and I hear a song that has a lot of sentiment...I image it playing as the soundtrack to our lives at a future date.
Tonight was the perfect example of this. I was listening to a playlist that my cousin (in-law) (and wonderful friend) Laura created on her blog. One of the songs was "My Wish" by Rascal Flatts. It's about your wish for someone...presumably your children. You know...all the wonderful things you wish for them in their life.
So...there I went...doing that "thing". The song was playing on my computer and I'm creating an imaginary slide-show in my mind about Davis graduating from high school and us sending him off to college with all our wishes for him. I'm imagining us telling him before he leaves all the things we've wished for him and how proud we are of him. I'm imagining us waving good-bye as he drives away - maybe he'll look back, maybe not. I hope he does. I'm imagining crying after he leaves ...knowing that I will be worrying about him. And, actually, it makes me cry just thinking about the day that this will actually happen.
Sigh. I sit back now and dry my tears because we're not there yet. He's still just a toddler and we have (God willing) many, many, many more years of making wonderful memories before that memory is made.
I don't want to forget all the wonderful songs that make up the past, present and future memories. So...here is my list so far. There will be more. Oh, and the playlist for most of these is in the bar to the right.
The Good Stuff by Kenny Chesney
Waste by Phish
Somewhere Over the Rainbow by Israel Kamaka
You Are My Sunshine by Frank Turner
I Hope You Dance by Leean Womack
Then by Brad Paisely
What a Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong
My Wish by Rascal Flatts
To Make You Feel My Love by Garth Brooks
Your Song by Elton John
You're Gonna Miss This by Trace Adkins
Fast Enough by Phish
2 comments:
MM! This is totally getting creepy. I do this EXACT same thing but have never talked to anyone about it because I thought I was a dork! This song was my song for E when I was pregnant. I would sing along with tears streaming down my face thinking about meeting him, imagining what he would look like and watching him grow. Now I still do it but we're sending him off to Kindergarten, watching him graduate from high school, get married, holding his baby. When he was little and would wake up in the middle of the night I would sing this to him. I even thought about having the words created for wall lettering but it was too long.
I swear the longer we're friends the more we have in common. Did you cry when you watched the olympics commercial where they're all little kids and it says "to their mothers they'll always be kids"?
Oh, and Then is my ringer when Robert calls...No song has ever summarized how my feelings have changed for him better.
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